Apparently not here...

Remember this book? Well, apparently the sidewalk doesn't end here. As a kid I remember having a few of his books of fun kid like poetry.

Well, apparently he had adult poetry books as well. Go here to see the full poem. Here is a quick exerpt. This might catch you off guard,

"Why, you jive motherfucker!" screamed Gimmesome Roy, "I've climbed through rain and sleet,
I've lost three fingers off my hands and four toes off my feet!
I've braved the lair of the polar bear and tasted the maggot's kiss.
Now, you tell me the high is in myself. What kind of shit is this?
My ears 'fore they froze off," says Roy, "had heard all kind of crap,
But I didn't climb for fourteen years to listen to that sophomore rap.
And I didn't crawl up here to hear that the high is on the natch,
So you tell me where the real stuff is or I'll kill your guru ass!"

Now, this is just a short example. I do love the way he still uses the rhyming lyrics even though these are adult poems. Makes it kind of fun!!

Just venting

One thing I really hate about relationships is how you are expected to befriend anyone they are friends with. Why? Just because he likes someone doesn't mean they are my kind of friend.

In my 34 years, I've been through many types of friendships. Some really great and will last forever, some are fair weather (they'll be coming and going), and some people that are "friends" because they need something from you. So, I sort of consider myself to be an expert on friends.

Now, Eric has a friend. They've been friends since they we're kids, 20 + years. I hear this a lot. There was a falling out several months ago between he and his wife and somehow I became a pawn in his game he was playing with her. And this was definitely NOT by choice! Well, because this friend of 20+ years hasn't even had the nerve to confront me to talk or apologize or accuse, or make any type of conversation, I have refused to allow him to be part of MY life. Not Eric's. As far as im concerned, he can spend as much time with him as he wants.

My personal analysis of the friend of 20+ years and Eric's relationship is this: this friend will use and abuse anyone. He comes around and calls only when he needs something. Once that is done, he's gone. Well, I guess either Eric has put up with this so long that he doesn't care anymore or he doesn't realize it. For all I know, he may not have been this way forever. But, because I know the difference, I refuse to be a part of this friendship.

But being the girlfriend, I feel like I should give Eric an honest assessment of what the relationship really is. As I do, I realize I have hurt him more than helped him. Now he feels used and inadequate. What I hate is that this person could mean so much to him that it can make him feel so bad. That must mean at some point over the last 20+ years this guy had a good streak.

I don't know if I should suck it up and pretend this guy never used me as his pawn in his little game or stand my ground and hope Eric will realize that this guy is NOW just a manipulating, cold hearted person that he doesn't need to make his life whole (sometimes this is the feeling I get as I hear about 20+ years guy). It's a struggle to find a common ground in this situation.

Just venting....

Jill

Project Runway is back!!! WOOHOO!!

It's finally back on. It seems like it's been forever. I can't wait to lay up on the couch and watch it tonight. It'll put Eric through hell!! LOL.

The newness of having it on Lifetime and based out of LA should make it interesting. Only complaint from my friend with a new baby, why is it coming on so early?? Nobody that watches Bravo watches TV that early!!

how much should i read into this??

My horoscope today is:

SCORPIO: October 23rd - November 21stBe careful about your interactions with friends and family today -- it's all too easy for them to step on your ego! If you have to, try to just duck down and let them hash it all out amongst themselves.

Oh Lord!! On the day I am going to bring Griffin back to his mom. I better duck and cover, lol!!

Sunday...

My experience baking cookies from scratch is certainly something to write about, because I WILL NEVER DO IT AGAIN!!! I see no reason to go to this much trouble, when I can buy the little tube of cookie dough and spoon it out onto a cookie sheet, bake, and get rave reviews!!!

I needed to bring something to work for a birthday party. I just recently went through some of my mom's recipes and pulled out a recipe for "Mrs. Field's Cookies." It didn't seem too hard so I decided on Sunday I would make those. It took like every bowl I had in the kitchen, a blender (in place of the food processor), baking pan, mixer, and tons of space!! I think I spent more time cleaning up, than actually baking. NO, I take that back. Grating 8 oz of hershey bars took the longest. Have you ever tried to grate chocolate? as you start on a piece, you think it's pretty easy and then your chocolate melts right where you are holding onto it and breaks. WTH???? How exactly are you supposed to do this? The whole time I am trying to do this, I am getting texts from people that are coming over for dinner. Can't very well text when your fingers are covered in chocolate. Here comes Griffin to save the day. Lucky for me, he knows as much about the iphone as I do and quickly texts back as me!!! So 2 hours after I start the process, i think i finally have a dough. All that's left is to mix in the chocolate chips. This in itself, is not an easy process. Imagine stirring cookie dough. It's not stirrable. It's plow into it with your hands to get it all mixed in. I am not sure what that is called. So, after all this, I am finally able to start the actual baking process. Not too bad, except this recipe must have made 6 doz cookies. What? My sister did not write this on the recipe card when she jotted it down. I think i opened and closed the oven 30 times taking cookies out and putting new ones in.

And, I finally finished, 3.75 hours later. I truly thought I had accomplished something. Right up until Eric tasted one and asked me "what's in this?", "is there coconut in this?" NOOOOO! There was no coconut, only very finely grated chocolate that I spent hours grating. If there was coconut, it would have been bought already shredded!!! Besides, as someone who loves me, you should just eat and tell me how great they are after I spent that long on them. After a shower to clean myself up after slaving away, I tasted one and thought they were pretty good, but I think I prefer Tollhouse slice and bakes. Fortunately, John shows up, heads straight to the cookies cooling on the table and cames out still chewing and calmly staes, "these cookies rock!" Thank God for John!!! He has restored my faith in my baking.

But, I will never do that again. Unless John asks me, because he rocks for saying the right thing!!

Top Chef Masters vs Top Cheffers

I found this questionnaire online about this weeks show. I love the masters show, but I miss the competitiveness of the Top Chef contestants. Anyways, just thought I'd share....

1.Doesn't Rick Bayless's beard kinda remind you of Spencer Pratt's? NO, absolutely not. Rick Bayless is one of my fav's and he is nothing like Spencer

2.What do you think of Anito Lo? She's a little strange and I wish she'd quit running her hands through her hair so much. It makes it look greasy.

3.How is your palette? Could you name those dishes? maybe the peanut butter and the corn

4.Which ex-Top Chef contestant would you pick to be your sous chef? FABIO!!!

5.Who was out of line: Dale or Chiarello? I have to say Dale. Michael was a little rough around the edges, but Dale was flat out rude.

6.How hot is Hubert Keller? I "heart" listening to him talk about his dishes. It brings true meaning to what they say about French men.

7.Who do you think will win? I think i want Bayless or Hubert to win. They both seem genuine about their cooking and seem to view this show as an experience and not a contest.

So, I guess I'll quit blogging for today....

LIPS....

How funny is this??? Only a man could have thought this one up!!! I hope whoever reads this silly blog gets as big of a kick out of this as I did!! Happy Friday!!

book vs movie

So, I just finished reading this book, Julie & Julia. It was FANTASTIC!! I cannot wait to see the movie, but I am afraid it may be a huge disappointment! I cannot figure out how much of the movie is going to be about the life of Julia Child, due to the fact that the book spends little time on it. I loved the character of Julie, though!! It's so easy to see yourself in her -

So, I am planning on seeing the movie sometime this weekend and I'll try and update the blog on how I feel about it. And, if you haven't had a chance, get the book and read it. It's great!!

a little poetry all the way from Alaska

life is the portrait you paint with your spirit, the decision you make to be happy, the time you spend in the pursuit of joy, don't waste your time dwelling on the unknown, but rejoice in the beauty of now, the opportunity to share your own unique beauty, and the chance to be truly amazing is fleeting so take this moment to realize your gift to this life and share it with all those you meet. Let love rule.... Ryan Parker

Insomnia is a BITCH

I cannot sleep.

The last several weeks I have had more trouble sleeping than I've had in years. I hate it. I just lie there with my eyes closed, while my brain is going full speed ahead. And, it's never things I want to think about. It's all the things I'd rather not think about. See, insomnia is a bitch....

Had a lot on my mind lately. I talk about it with friends sometimes. It helps, I guess. There are other people in my life I'd like to talk to about these things, but I would feel awkward now. Sooo, I am blogging, and let me just say, my blogging skills are lacking.

Work is probably the most stress free time I spend daily. This is odd, considering the impending doom of "the strike." But, it is the most normal time in my day where everything is as it should be (for the most part). Home life has been a little difficult lately. I love my boyfriend, but let me just say that some of his habits drive me insane. I mean, to the point of wanting to leave sometimes. I know relationships have to be worked at, and believe me, I am working HARD!! I wonder sometimes how much he is working though? He seems so stress free as he lays there sleeping. I know I annoy him too, but he manages to just sleep through it. I want some of whatever he's taking, PLEASE!!! I think if I could sleep, I could handle all of this so much better.

Other things that bother me:

1. I need a new car. Seems like I am taking mine in for work every other week.
2. When my car isn't being worked on, Eric's jeep is being worked on.
3. Both vehicles in the shop at one time.
4. I want a new house. with a pool. and 2 bathrooms. in a good neighborhood.
5. I can't get Eric motivated to shop for homes with me.
6. as a matter of fact, I can't seem to get Eric motivated to do much, period.
7. those people i wish i could talk to about all of this, no matter how trivial, doesn't really like me much anymore. being family isn't enough to make someone like you. this one probably bothers me most because there is no solution. it is what it is.

As I said, my blogging skills are lacking as you can tell. I think i just rambled my way through this one. I am going to try that sleep thing again. Wish me luck!!!

update

So, we are back to talking strike again as the southeast region's contract end is around the corner. Around the corner, meaning today. And, once again there is no rhyme or reason to what are local union reps tell us. I really hate being in limbo. The sad part is, the people sitting in Austin "negotiating" already know what the outcome will be, it's just timinng on the announcment. I, for one, wish we would just strike or ratify an agreement.

In other news, my friend Monica is pregnant!! Yay! It seems like just the other day she was complaining that she didn't want to be a "geriatric pregnancy." According to Mon, if you are over 35 and pregnant, the medical community considers you to be just this. LOL, I got the biggest kick out of this conversation and 3 months later she is preggo!! Now, it's got me to thinking, if I want kids and wait til I'm over 35 and am considered "geriatric", do I have to find a special dr or what? I have seen no advertisements for these in the Bmt area??? Guess we will find out because with the way my life has been going, I will be 35 or older before I ever have a kid.

My birthday is right around the corner and I'll be 34 this year, woohoo! I am somewhat excited because for the first time in 5 years, Brandi will be in from alaska for my birthday celebration. If you don't know much about me, my birthday is my favorite holiday ever!! I'm not a conceited person, but i love having that day be all about me. Come on, you have to admit everyone wants to be the center of attention at some point. But, having her here is like the icing on the cake, LOL!!

My life is just not very exciting, is it??? I have no witty stories or comments. Just plain old every day life....