Jill
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Forgive and Forget?
Forgive and forget.... We've all heard it a million times. The forgiving I can do, it's the forgetting part I'm struggling with.
I just think that betrayal takes ahold of a relationship and basically strangles it to death. That's how I feel. Like I'm choking on every word I say to him because I want to feel what I'm saying, but I don't. Maybe with time it'll get better. Or maybe it'll get worse. I am one that tends to dwell on things which would lead me to believe the latter. I want to be optimistic and believe this person could love me enough to change and never do this to me again. I really, really, really want to.
I'm not quite there yet though. I'm still dwelling on the past. This changes the memories I had in so many ways. The good has turned ugly in my head.
So, where do I go from here? I'm just letting God take the lead on that. This is just a brief therapy session by way of blog.... Any constructive advice would be appreciated.
I've got a thousand other good things on my plate to keep me busy though. I'll get into those things on my next blog (which will be coming in a more timely fashion than this one).
Jill